Drift.

 Our sermon in church yesterday was about religious drifting. It was defined as “Changing behaviors without changing beliefs”

As it was very clear how applicable it is to our faith, I had an “Ah-Ha” moment later yesterday afternoon as I compulsively ate Lemmon Oreos that I had “drifted” in more areas of my life that I had realized.

Why was I binging on Oreos? That is not behavior that follows my beliefs. And I know it. I know better. I know I have goals. BIG goals. To lose weight and improve my health and fitness. And I know that binging on Oreos is not going to help me reach my goals… In reality, IT HINDERS IT.

So, why am I sabotaging my progress? Why am I making poor food choices? Why am I letting Oreos WIN? Well, in my “Ah-Ha” moment I realized that there was much more to those Oreos than a tasty treat. It was a compulsive behavior. Like that of an addict.

Addiction:

·         a strong and harmful need to regularly have something (such as a drug) or do something (such as gamble)

·         an unusually great interest in something or a need to do or have something

So, there’s that. I think I have an addiction to sugar. Like, a real addiction. There is no moderation for me when it comes to delicious sweet treats. It is all or nothing. I can usually resist sweets in general. BUT, if I allow myself to have some… I will likely eat all the sweets before I realize how much I have consumed.

This is a recent development. I have always had weight struggles and have definitely made many poor food choices to get where I am at and I have always had a sweet tooth, but, never to this extreme. I have never had a compulsive need to eat anything.

So yesterday in the midst of my “Ah-Ha” moment, I had a realization that I had allowed Oreos to have POWER over me and knew right then that it had to stop. I immediately threw the Oreos in the trash.

Weight loss is a journey. We stumble, we fall, we get back up, we keep going. End of story. So, this was definitely a stumble & fall but I will not allow it to derail all of my progress. I will keep going because the only other option is to quit. And quitting will result in me feeling like shit. And I don’t want to feel like shit. Simple enough.

Today is a new day and a new week! I have EIGHT weeks until our beach vacation and I have every intention of pushing myself as hard as I can to reach some fitness/weight milestones in the next eight weeks.

Now for the reality check. Not only did those Oreos make me feel awful last night (I had a horrible headache) but they also made their presence known when I stepped on the scale AND when I struggled to button my pants this morning.

Last weigh-in: 4/18/2016

177.0

Today:

182.6

Womp. Womp.

I am sure some of that is bloat but no excuses, I made poor food choices and it shows.

I started the week out right with a good Monday morning sweat sesh! Chest/Arms + HIIT before work! I plan to take measurements and pictures tonight and will check back in next Monday.