The fog has cleared. Finally. For the first time since getting pregnant I really feel like myself.
I plan to write a whole separate post about my prepartum/postpartum depression when the time is right but for now just know that I had been struggling greatly with depression since the 2nd trimester of my pregnancy, so for almost 3 years. I have tried and tried to get my healthy back since pregnancy with very little success. But I have also not been myself. I have been depressed. Incorrectly medicated. Living in a fog. Going through the motions. And not feeling much of anything. This time is different. I am no longer in a fog. My depression is well controlled. And I am feeling more like myself than I have in years!
So, what’s new in 2017? Well, for me, I want to just LIVE. Like, really live. I want to embrace all the moments. I want to be present. I want to enjoy the day, the month, the year. I want to live and lead a healthy lifestyle for myself and my family. I want to find what makes me happy and drown myself in it. Right now I am focusing on getting an exercise routine established. I am doing a combination of running and weight lifting 5x/week. I am really hoping my running will take off and lead me down a path of runner’s highs and races.
Also, in 2 weeks I will have 3 year old twins?!?! How did this happen?
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